I often think of overused words and how they lose their impact over time through frequent and excessive usage. An overused word on the BBS the last few months is of course 'apathy'. I'd argue it's misused in most cases, as I don't believe the majority are apathetic to our cause. Supporters that have decided to stay away may become apathetic after a full season of not going; they may slowly withdraw their support and stop caring over time. But I don't think true apathy immediately sets in as soon as someone decides to stop going to Oakwell. If anything it's the opposite; the passion people have for the club and the frustration with the owners that has caused people to make a serious decision and withhold their support (in the physical sense) for now is still there. For example, the same people will still check the results and take to social media and vent their frustrations. They may also discuss what they did with their time instead, away from the football, but there is often an underlying sense that they would rather be there under different circumstances I.e. with a new set of owners and with a team who will fight tooth and nail for the cause. There's nothing wrong with any of the above in my view, but it isn't an example of apathy because the defeats, and often the manner of the defeat, still hurts. So yeah, 'apathy'.
Personally I've never been apathetic towards the club, I've sometimes avoided talking or even thinking about BFC but only because it would hurt too much to do so. Apathetic? Never.
I think if people are honest most would feel the same way as you mate (I am also in that boat). As I say, I don't think true apathy has set in, I think it's more anger and frustration and a concerted effort by a significant amount of the fanbase to make a point by their absence; that takes determination and discipline, and it shows that people still care, however much they wish they didn't.
Don't hear it as much these days but hospical and everythink. Catching lots of buses home, and living near the hospital I used to hear the first one loads growing up.