I'm just about to set off for today's game and I've been questioning myself all week as to why I bought a ticket when my usual travelling companion decided he couldn't face it. As one of the season ticket holders who couldn't face going to the Fleetwood game the other week, there's a certain kind of madness in deciding to make a trip to an uncovered away terrace in the rain for the ultimate banana skin tie. I've seen some views on here to the effect that they hope we lose today as it will surely force the issue re LJ. That's definitely not me, although I do think he's proven himself incapable of doing the job in recent weeks. However, we all know he's not the sole problem as to our current predicament. So why am I going then? Obviously the primary reason is to hopefully see a convincing Reds win, but I think we're far from a certainty to achieve that today. Ultimately, I've come to the conclusion that, if the worst is to happen today, then we'll have reached the low point of my time supporting the Reds. And that makes me want to be there. I need to witness it, if it happens, so that I can reconcile it in my mind. I remember my Uncle, who used to take me to games as a kid, talking about losses to Rhyl and Marine and the games with Enfield. Today for me could well be that day. This might be my Marine game, after 30 years or so of following the Reds. If it is, despite all the apathy that this season seems to have generated for me, it still feels wrong that I'm not there to witness it. It's a completely bizarre feeling, and it's taken me all week to get my head around exactly what it is. I really hope in a few hours time I'll be looking back at this in the knowledge of a comfortable win and realising that it's all not quite as bad as it could be. If that's not the case then I'm not sure exactly how I'm going to feel, but at least I understand now why I found it necessary to be there. You Reds!
Much shorter answer to the question, 'why am I going today'. To watch a game of football. To support Barnsley FC. I think we can overthink ourselves sometimes, even when the going is tough, we can still do those two things.
Weirdly I know what you mean. I'd been to every 7 goal defeat in my life time until the Man city league cup game about 8 years ago and was completely gutted that I'd missed it for some reason.
I hope we win today and go on a unbeaten run, also LJ keeps his job...but. I thought the game at Scunny, was ideal for us to turn it, having already beating em twice. After I couldn't see where our next win would come from. Lose today and I cant how LJ will be here on Monday... big day